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Ildari's Journal

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Known locationEdit

  • Found on top of a makeshift desk made of two or three stacked coffins, in the underground crypt of Fort Frostmoth.


Day 32
It's been almost a month since unearthing the crypt at Fort Frostmoth, and I haven't seen a single spark of life in the general's remains. Grafting the heartstone to the subject is proving much more difficult than I originally anticipated. I've used almost every method I can think of, and still there's no sign of reanimation. At this rate, it could be years before I make any progress... which is time that I just can't afford right now. If my vengeance is to come to fruition, I need results. If not, I may need to resort to more dramatic measures.

Day 47
It finally appears that I'm making some progress. After my latest experiment, General Carius's eyes briefly opened and he moved his arms. It lasted for less than a few moments, but it's the first sign of progress I've seen since I arrived here. A few of my assistants were insisting that I was imagining things, but I dismissed them for their insolence. They won't be bothering anyone ever again.

Day 55
General Carius awoke fully today. He bolted upright after my incantations and began staggering around like a blind man. He seemed to ignore my commands... in fact, hearing my voice seemed to increase his hostility. I was able to remove the hearstone before he became violent, but this isn't a result that I expected. Even though he's able to be awakened, I feel as though the real work has just begun.

Day 59
The general is still unable or unwilling to listen to my commands. He's acting increasingly paranoid, and appears to have his own free will. He's convinced that I am a "spy" or the "enemy," and I've had to restrain him to prevent him from outright attacking me. This is becoming intolerable. I'm beginning to wonder if someone with a heartstone can be commanded at all. If my experiments with General Carius fail, I may have to resort to self-experimentation... something I've been avoiding for a long time.


  • This journal might be understood to contradict itself. At the start, Ildari writes of her "vengeance", hinting that General Carius's re-animation is part of her plot to get revenge on Neloth. This implies that she had already undergone Neloth's operation to graft a heartstone into her chest, an event which caused her great pain and for which she seeks revenge (according to another of her journals). However, in the final entry, she writes, "I may have to resort to self-experimentation", which might be taken to mean she'll have to graft one to herself, implying she hadn't undergone Neloth's operation.


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